Balthier: Well, thank you guys for the support. Really great, to be honest!
I just talked to a friend of mine today, who has some contacts there, and I think we'll might do something about it. Even if it leads nowhere, it's better than doing nothing. We'll see about it soon.
I will share a story with you that might not nessasarily be the same in circumstance, but maybe the same in theme.
I start working with the Canadian Federal Government 2 years ago. I was in tha Taxation department, and I was basically a call center front-line clerk for tax returns/info/etc. Just about anything basic-intermediate to do with taxes, I was responsible for, for the entire population of Canada (Not alone, obviously).
I had gotten the job just a year out of university, so I figured I had hit the big time, and that my future was laid out for me. My real goal was to use my job with the government so springboard into a job as a parole officer, which was my dream.
Well, the job was great for year one. I was making what is for my province AMAZING money, just really living large....good food, buying all the games/movies/CD's I wanted, going out to eat a lot, just really living it up. I was laid off for the summer, and worked part time, and was supplemented with employment insurance until i went back in the fall.
I went back for year 2, and something had changed. I was all gung-ho about being a devout employee, and really making moves, and *it* started. I am not one to pass the buck on responsiblity, but I really had the deck stacked against me. First off, my boss worked a different shift than me due to THEM placing me on a shift different than the one I agreed to in the contract (Which is illegal), and not having time to fix it. So I was able to physically see my boss 2 hours a week. As a result, we never hit it off. my old boss was STRICT, but FAIR, and I would have given *anything* to have been put back under her, or at the VERY least be given a boss that worked at the same time as me.
What was really a pain was that they assigned me a "psuedoboss" who was responsible for sending me basic emails that I might miss since my rela boss worked a different shift, etc. This other guy tried his best, and I even campaigned to be totally moved to his supervision, but my request fell on deaf ears. Around this time, I started noticing things behind the facade of the job, not to be pretentious, but almost like Neo in the Matrix, when he starts to see behind the walls. I started noticing how cut throat the job was, and how it encouraged people to act. I also noticed that the people who *HAD* the skills last year were NOT the ones promoted, but the ones who were suck ups and good at playing the political game were.
Ethically, I cannot play those types of games. The reason is that I am too good at them. When I start conducting myself like that at a job, I get apathetic, elitist, and I am damn good at it. My own convictions and spiritual center has made me realize that IMHO conduct such as that is unbecoming of any virtuous person, so I refuse to engage in it. I just put my nose down, did the best damn job I could, and was willing to sink or swim based on that.
Well, I passed my year-end test with a good solid mark, not as good as I wanted, but decenyt, but then my supervisor NAILED me in the evaluation. She took small isolated incidents and basically said I was doing these sorts of things ALL the time (BTW, I was very well liked and thought highly off in my job by all of my peers). I feel that because she basically only saw me for 2 hours a week, and was then only around me for at most 45 minutes that day, that she had no other way to evaluate me properly, whereas the psuedoboss WOULD have seen my true ability.
In short, I as informed that I was being removed from the eligibility list for future contracts. Not quite the same as a firing, but a de facto firing it was. At first I was crushed, but then a day or two later, I was actually elated. So much had changed in my life over those 2 years, that I realized that I would not have gotten anywhere in that job anyway, so that even though the CAUSE of my situation was largely outside forces I could not control, the REALITY of it made perfect sense. I was not the right person for this job enviroment, and that job was not right for me.
I had saved a lot of money, so I lived off it for the summer, and am now contemplating new career paths, or even possibly doing some travelling, or going back to school. My point in sharing this long-winded story is to highlight the fact that while an event can be traumatic, you really won't be able to judge it until in hindsight. Looking back, while I would have rathered it hadn't have happened that WAY, I am very glad it DID happen. My health and morale had gotten so low heading into Spring that I would have likely had real apprehension about going back this fall ANYWAY. It hurts to lose what was good money, but you can adjust your lifestyle and live off ANY job if you put your mind to it.
The theme of this recession has been people embracing their newly granted freedom. Yes, it is freedom, because you might have wnated to do something career-wise, but been afraid to because of the risk of losing a current job. Well, if you are laid off or fired, you now have that push to do whatever it is you always wanted to do...you truly have everything to gain. Take a while if you can afford it, get the old job out of your system, and get back on the horse as soon as you are ready. And never have regrets.